idk.

i just realize today..

no matter what.

even if i did nothing wrong at all, people just naturally hate me.

i know i shouldnt care, but i do. i care a whole hell lot.

when they first meet us, they always hate me but not them. i dont expect them to hate them but hell… what did i do wrong…

its like “oh hey, lets go against mango day.”

i hate this.

i hate how nobody gives me a chance anymore. not a chance to be their friends. not a chance to see how nice i could be. not a chance at all.

i dont get it.. why dont i get a chance? why do they get more of a chance than me? sometimes in school i just wanna run out. i cant take it anymore. i dont want to take bullshit from people but i cant just drop shit. i cant just stop time.

people effin suck.

i also realized on top of that.

even after school… i feel lonely…

my own best friend.. i hardly talk to her…. how can i expect to talk to anyone else more than her? nobody IMs me anymore.. such tiny things but they really bother me.. like really, am I a person to not like? what are my flaws? tell me.. i want to change them…